12/12/07 Worst Day Of My Life Options

[BGOAT wiz]

Well early this morning I was awaken by my cell phone ringing and my upset mother on the other line. she said to just get dressed and come to my grandparents house that she thinks my grandmother is dead. so I quickly got dressed and drove there doing about 90 the entire way. By the time I got there they were carrying her out limp and cold. My grandmother was my life is my life and always will be my life. if it wasn't for her I wouldn't be where I am today or who I am today. She raised me like her own because my mom was young and wasn't ready for children. so it's like losing a mom and a grandmother all in one. It's really hard to deal w/ and even to type this but I haven't spent most the morning...well morning. so now I am all teared out and pretty composed for a minute. Anytime I was in a jam or needed money or anything my grandmother always helped me out no matter what. So this weekend I will be in vermont at her funeral and I dunno when I will be back online or on the computer or w/e. right now nothing seems important and everything seems like a waste of time. Explaining it to my kids was exceptionally hard because both of them loved there great grandmother aka to them as Gamma alot. My grandfather and my mom are handling it as well as they can considering the situation. it's a tuff time for all of us. I mean we all expected her to be around for a long time to come. She was a great women and an inspiration and loved her kids and grandkids etc more then anything. This is really hard especially considering it's so close to xmas time. xmas will never be the same w/ out grandma. If I don't post before then I hope everyone else has a Merry xmas and always chairish the time you have w/ your family and loved ones because you might wake up tomorrow by a phone call saying that, that loved one is no longer there.